What Fades Away

Claire's Journal - Four

Words, Words, Words

May 1

It’s done.

I slept for forever and now I’m just groggy and hungry. King Drake canceled the barbecue, since I couldn’t go. That was nice of him. He was unhappy but not angry.

My brain is everywhere today. Like that fucker shot me in the head instead of the side. Haha way to miss, asshole. I’m trying to piece together what happened in the last few days so I don’t forget. Bear with me, Future Claire. I got fucking shot.

Met vamp asshole at bar. I looked super hot. He wanted to fuck. Dani was piiiiiissed and so “subtle questioning” became “I have gun, answer me now.” He got mad.

He used his brain power to control her. Made her sit down and shut up. I was mad – fuck no. You don’t do that to us. No way do you brain control me, asshole. So I said his real name. That got his attention. Then I said the word.

Not sure I would’ve said it if he hadn’t done that to Dani. Anyway, it’s done.

He changed somehow. Turned feral, ran at me and out the door. Fuck him. Dani was freaked out – major flashbacks of Before. I soothed her and then she went to get drunk. Bartender called cab for us, we went home.

Blue Camry followed us. Normally I don’t know cars, but it looks so much like it did in the 80’s. Dad had one. I remember when he brought it home. The exhaust was quieter than the old car, and the mileage was better. Mom called it a “liftback.” Sometimes I’d watch them load groceries from the backseat.

Weird the shit you remember. I bet they don’t.

Car turned off a few blocks before home and it was more important to get Spanish into bed. Was about to write in here when it happened. Got shot through the door – it grazed me but bled like a son of a bitch. So I shot the fucker with my shotgun. Saw him through the hole for a split second – took him right in the chest. BOOM, bitch. Bet I scared the fuck out of him.

I called Drake. Could’ve called Mae, but if she didn’t pick up…ambulance was coming, and it was important someone look after Dani while I was gone. King Drake got there before the ambulance and rode with me. Some of his people stayed here with Dani. Good guy.

I told him everything. Angel, vamp, shooter, everything. He was awesome and stayed with me while I got stitches and brought me home. Class act.

Will gave me a paid week off. And balloons and candy. Also class act.

Dani feels so guilty and I feel guilty for her being guilty. She’s upset I got shot, and upset she couldn’t help. King Drake has people around for protection, and he’s helping us find a new place. I don’t want her to feel guilty, just safe. I’m glad I got shot instead of her.

I’m glad it was me instead. If I lost Dani…if anyone tried to hurt her…there’s no one in Memphis that would be safe from what I’d do.

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May 4

Dani was approached by a vampire tonight. This shit is my fault – I insisted she go to a gig at that stupid bar. Some British chick with a bad dye job. I should’ve been there to take the bitch on myself…next time I’ll be there for sure.

The vampire wants to team up to investigate the Clockwork Killer shit. The vampires want revenge for what happened to their Markus last week. Which means…they don’t know who did it. So who the fuck shot me and why?

Of course, we didn’t kill Markus. We saw him, talked to him, and two days later he showed up dead. He was definitely alive the last time we saw him and we’ve got pretty secure alibis. But if he wasn’t dead after we left the club, why did someone follow me and shoot me?

Dani wants to know who’s watching us, and she’s right. And she’s going to push this chick off on some werewolf guy, Rick, as soon as she can. But I don’t like supes approaching her and I definitely don’t like them attacking her.

Dani’s angry. I get it, in a way, but I know I’ll never really understand. Just like there are things about my nature she’s never really going to get either. The Beast is closer to the surface than she’s comfortable with, and she’s terrified they’ll lock her up for her own sake. I feel helpless trying to soothe her but maybe someone in the Summer Court has insights? There’s gotta be people there who had to learn to focus the anger and channel it into positive directions.

But I’ll admit. If she lost control and killed a vampire or two…I wouldn’t be too sad about that.

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